missed me!?

Well, it's been awhile since I've posted but seriously I'm majorly boring lately and I'm not sure anyone even reads this blog so.... ;)I should be over the moon with life lately, especially compared to a few years ago, where I was struggling with money, stressed all the time, dealing with dating, etc but I really have been in a rut. I'm very happy with my relationship, of course there are bumps and bruises, but he really is the perfect guy for me...let's face it I'm not the easiest person to deal with! I'm beyond happy with the unexpected turn in my life where my baking actually became a business. I love my home and my little family, and even am somewhat content with being back in Cruces. Yet, I can't shake the rut or this impending big 3-5 birthday coming up fast. I'm like middle aged almost and I thought I would have life all figured out by now and to be honest I'm more clueless then ever!! I'm baffled by people, heartbroken by friends and feeling so bitter and alone...I don't have a clue what I want to be when I grow up and just keep wasting time and money on school and need buckets of money to actually do what I want-open a bakery...I am extremely unhealthy or atleast I feel like I am...BLAH!!