experiment

I have decided that for December I will no longer plan, pursue, or text anyone in hopes of trying to find the friendship balance in my life. My biggest sorrow it seems is people; making them too important, getting hurt too easily, putting friendship on a pedestal that clearly no one else does. I'm hoping that backing off will help me stop making people so big and focus all of that on myself, making me a better person. So we shall see what this experiment leads to.....

"Sometimes don't you just want to get lost, just to see who cares enough to find you?"

good year...

The things on my list that I'd like to do every year are lots of drinking-friend fun, day trips, camping, the lake, Abq trips, theme parties, holiday fun and travel....must say this year has been pretty awesome and I've done almost everything, including cutting down on the drama of being me. Here's hoping that next year is just as good and packed full of fun times!

Holiday weekend...

Thanksgiving is a wonderful time to remind us to give thanx...I have lots to be thankful for, including this weekend. Drinking with one of my bests in Mesilla, thanksgiving dinners with families, hearing from friends (I love holidays-people taking time to tell you they love you...makes my heart happy!), buying and decorating a Xmas tree with my boyfriend and a baby shower. I even made a new friend, which is always one of my fav things in life.

"Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy." ~Robert Anthony

Is this me? I really worry that I don't allow myself to be happy, that I let my BS get in the way, that I'm too afraid to just be happy.....

Lots of good and bad to being back in your hometown, my favorite so far is reconnecting with old friends!
Today, after watching my stupid football team play like shit, we went to Novemberbrew and had a great time, sampling way too many beers.
Happy side note, one more month of this semester! Thank goodness!!

I can't believe it's November and that this year is almost over...time flies! I have had such a better, boring year (I only say boring because I am the queen of drama)with a few bumps and bruises. I have learned a lot, especially about people and the ones that shouldn't be in my life, despite my lack of wanting to cut out friends and wanting to always see the best in everyone.
My goal for these last two months is to cut out those people and to get myself healthy and skinny (I recently started a lifestyle diet)and back to Vanessa like.