happiness!

I thought I'd do a post about happiness, I know I take everything for granted, never am satisfied with the present and what I have, always focusing on the negative...and I hate that part of me! I even think I sabotage my own happiness because I just don't know how to just be.
Here are some lovely little quotes/reminders! :)

Winner, winner, chicken dinner!

First of all, I don't know what that phrase mean but it makes me laugh and is constantly stuck in my head! And these cupcakes really are the winners! So here is my favorite cupcake that I have made, despite being a pain in the ass with a million different steps...S'mores cupcakes with a graham cracker crust, bittersweet chocolate, chocolate cupcake and a toasted marshmallow frosting! Heaven in a bit, seriously!! And yes I have already gained ten pounds just making these but somethings are worth the sacrifice, right!?

Ugh I hate baking failures, makes me feel so inadequate and I know that's dumb because I am a new-be and have only had two failures but still! Friday was a huge failure, forty cupcakes and two hours lost; stupid new Chocolate Banana recipe! I totally had a Julie and Julia moment, laying on my couch is grouchiness and hating all things baking. So a few hours later, I got off my ass and re-started, this time making perfect cupcakes (60!) and attempting monkey chocolate molds. This baby shower may be the death of me-six hours, over a hundred cupcakes and an aching body! :/

How I feel about summer...lol

What an exciting baking day!! I had a Father's Day order, then decided on a name for my baking company with the help of my fabulous friend-Baked Bliss by Vanessa, then ordered business cards and then became Facebook official with a page, https://www.facebook.com/BakedBliss.
I feel like such an adult! ;)

Victory is mine!

Woo hoo, I conquered Red Velvet! I am working on a recipe book, now happily I can say I have my basics-Vanilla Bean, Strawberry, Chocolate, Red Velvet and Carrot!

Rough week but yesterday, obtaining a dream and getting amazing love and support from Facebook, has made me feel refreshed and hopeful!

I'm going to re-attempt Red Velvet, gotta get this favorite mastered and it still bugs me that I couldn't get it right the first time! Then this weekend, I have an order for Father's Day. :)

I'm a professional!

So ironically I made these cupcakes to make myself feel better (I have a secret, the actual baking process, the end result, the picture taken is what I love about baking, why I do it so much; not the actual eating part, although that part is good too...)

and ended up getting an offer for restaurants! So, you know what that means, officially I am a professional baker! I am still going to finish school and my internship because I am so close and I want to complete this; after that we shall see where life takes me! :D

feeling a little broken today...but tomorrow's another day right!?

Carrot Cake

This is on my top three best cupcakes I have made, and I am so relieved because I adore carrot cake!

"Your Life Is an Occasion. Rise to It."

I'm ready to stop being a lazy blob who has fastly become a shut in, wallowing in people sadness...pretty soon you will see me on a tv show, "A New Mexico women found dead, covered in chocolate and flour, weighing five hundred pounds."

I have a confession, I really dislike homemade frosting! Love making it, love piping it fancy style, love the way it looks (without it, cupcakes would be nude!)

....but ugh, I hate the taste. I keep trying different recipes and they all taste like I'm eating a stick of butter! It's just me because everyone else seems to love it. I will conquer this!

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"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean possession and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child. And you learn to build your roads today because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure. That you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn... ~Veronica A. Shoffstall"

my first crazed cupcake fan! lol

Although I do my best to give away or sell most of what I make, I do have to do sample control (after all it's the right thing to do!)...somethings I have to sample more then others, like the double chocolate chip cookies I made last week (there are no pictures because I was too busy covering myself in chocolate goodness), hopefully it never turns into this! ;)

I've been feeling off lately and it makes me sad how much I let other people affect me; seems like my constant losing battle. I also struggle with the grass is greener complex...I love that I have become a boring domestic goddess, that I finally have stability, consistency but at the same time I struggle with the need to return to my gypsy ways. It's like I have a itch for change, for excitement.....I really just need to learn to be happy with what I have, where I am and who I am (if only that wasn't so freaking hard...)
But anyways, I digress, I had a great night, filled with Bbq and wine and a friend and that was all it took to bring me back to myself. :)
We are full on into summer now (boo!) and I have been doing well with my reading list, my baking company (have a order this week for pineapple upside down cupcakes!) but next I need to really focus on my weight and diet, then learning Spanish and then Summer School in July.