Summer school is kinda scary but I love it..it's like wham bam thank you mam. lol
I am questioning if I'm the settling down type..I have everything I've every wanted in a relationship yet I still feel the need to flee, to find things wrong with it so I can create drama. Seriously what is wrong with me?
This weekend has been fun, spending time with bf and a best, Christina...had date/game night Friday and then yesterday went to Silver City for the Blues Fest, and tomorrow going to the wine fest. :)

Summer is officially here and I am feeling gross and fat and blah....I am in major need of boot camp and motivation and a major health kick in the butt!
And school starts tomorrow so June is the month to get it together!!

randomness..

Here are some random Vanessa facts:

~I am a very anal planner and get very annoyed with flaky people.
~I am a complex beyond measure.
~I secretly hate when no one likes or comments on my Facebook status.
~I have an addictive personality, like chapstick and lotion, naps, sweets, socializing, tv..
~I consider my bests my family, which is why I take friendships so seriously.
~I hate people yet crave them and in some ways am run by them..what they do/don't do, what they think of me, etc.
~I am a moody bitch..maybe even bi-polar.
~I am a animal person, can't not have a dog.
~I am obsessed with taking pictures.
~I have had a million people come and go in the last thirty years and wonder if you ever really know someone, if I'll ever find people that will never go away.
~I've struggled with money all my life.
~I am so lazy.
~I am my own worst enemy.
~I'm a control freak.
~Shopping does equal happiness.
~I have created my blog around Bluntcards. ;)
~I do in fact think the world revolves around me, hence why when I was little I thought fireworks were for me and why for most of my life I lived in a Vanessa bubble.
~I am so competitive, especially when it comes to board games.

This weekend Zoey got her first Starbucks..the lady gave her a dog treat and it was like dog crack, she even tore the cup apart after she wanted more so badly. Tonight she drank the ice from my tea, her eyes closed licking away in Starbucks bliss.

the weekend...

Was way over-booked for Saturday and then everyone ended up flaking.. stupid people! Ugh!!
But today went to the lake, just A and Zoey and I....it was Zoey's first trip and she is soooo cute! But so sad to see how abused she was, that she can't just be a regular dog. She would only go into the water if we held her paws. Great day trip though! :)

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"Ask most people what they want from life and the answer is simple..to be happy. Maybe its this expectation though that just keeps us from getting there. Maybe the more we try and will ourselves to states of bliss the more confused we get, to the point where we don't recognize ourselves. Instead we just keep smiling, trying like hell to be the happy people we wish we were until eventually it hits us, its been there all along..not in our dreams or hopes but in the known, the comfortable, the familiar." ~Grey's Anatomy

I don't know how after a year of really bad boys and dating experiences, I can finally have everything in a guy I could have ever imagined or wished for, yet I still sabotage. Ugh I'm so annoyed with myself and scared that I'm going to lose everyone. Guys put up with me for so long but eventually all leave and can you blame them..all I do is push and push...and fuck I'm moody! I don't even know why I do it...
And G is back and says he just wants to be friends, even called me his BFF and said how happy he is for me and A, yet in the same breathe brings up sex with me.
On a better note, one of my bests is back in town and having my bests around just makes me feel complete. So tonight we all went to a baseball game (yes in fact little ol' Cruces has a professional team now..lol) and then had a few beers.
I'm looking forward to the weekend and a day trip to the lake. :)

I saw something great today and is so something I would say...My fake ID says 32 but I'm turning 28! :)

last night....

Last night met some friends at Vintage Winery...I love the ambiance-drinking wine with good friends, on the patio, listing to live music. Then we walked to a random biker bar, then we started walking back to our cars and ended up crashing a party...completely random outside party in Mesilla that was so great and we ended up dancing the night away, aided by a fog machine.
I always have the greatest, random adventures when I go out! ♥

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"It's never too late to live happily ever after!"

I am officially done with my second semester of school..five more to go! Not looking forward to summer school but am looking forward to doing absolutely nothing for a few weeks!

Sunday fun day..

A and have gotten good at doing random day trips and they are so much fun..today we went to Ruidoso, despite it SNOWING in May! Went on a mini-hike with Zoey, then ate at my fav Italian restaurant, then did some wine tasting. :)

Friday night...

My BFF from Texas came to visit last night and I hadn't seen him in almost a year. So great being with him but it made me sad..how did I end up with all my best friends living out of town! :(