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"After a while you learn the subtle difference between holding a hand and chaining a soul and you learn that love doesn't mean possession and company doesn't mean security. And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes ahead with the grace of an adult not the grief of a child. And you learn to build your roads today because tomorrows ground is too uncertain for plans and futures have ways of falling down in mid-flight. After a while you learn that even sunshine burns if you get too much, so you plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers. And you learn that you really can endure. That you really are strong and you really do have worth and you learn and you learn... ~Veronica A. Shoffstall"

my first crazed cupcake fan! lol

Although I do my best to give away or sell most of what I make, I do have to do sample control (after all it's the right thing to do!)...somethings I have to sample more then others, like the double chocolate chip cookies I made last week (there are no pictures because I was too busy covering myself in chocolate goodness), hopefully it never turns into this! ;)

I've been feeling off lately and it makes me sad how much I let other people affect me; seems like my constant losing battle. I also struggle with the grass is greener complex...I love that I have become a boring domestic goddess, that I finally have stability, consistency but at the same time I struggle with the need to return to my gypsy ways. It's like I have a itch for change, for excitement.....I really just need to learn to be happy with what I have, where I am and who I am (if only that wasn't so freaking hard...)
But anyways, I digress, I had a great night, filled with Bbq and wine and a friend and that was all it took to bring me back to myself. :)
We are full on into summer now (boo!) and I have been doing well with my reading list, my baking company (have a order this week for pineapple upside down cupcakes!) but next I need to really focus on my weight and diet, then learning Spanish and then Summer School in July.

Today, I don’t have much to talk about. Life has been completely ordinary, in the best way. Don't you love when that happens! :)
Tomorrow making Brown butter cupcakes with apricot frosting...

This is what I wish I was doing today:

I hate summer hotness!

Banana Bread

I have been wanting to make banana bread forever but was always intimidated, but now that I am a fabulous baker I can make anything, right!? Well the over ripe bananas were calling my name and the fact the I had a well stocked pantry now, made it a no brainier that I had to attempt my first loaf.
I must now confess that homemade bread is fast becoming my favorite thing to make, poor cupcakes! I just find it amazing that you can take basic ingredients and make them into a beautiful loaf of bread! Plus bread is challenging and a little scary and time consuming; I kinda like that. And the smell that will fill every crevice of your house (I wish I had smell-o-vision for y'all)... :)