I've been feeling off lately and it makes me sad how much I let other people affect me; seems like my constant losing battle. I also struggle with the grass is greener complex...I love that I have become a boring domestic goddess, that I finally have stability, consistency but at the same time I struggle with the need to return to my gypsy ways. It's like I have a itch for change, for excitement.....I really just need to learn to be happy with what I have, where I am and who I am (if only that wasn't so freaking hard...)
But anyways, I digress, I had a great night, filled with Bbq and wine and a friend and that was all it took to bring me back to myself. :)
We are full on into summer now (boo!) and I have been doing well with my reading list, my baking company (have a order this week for pineapple upside down cupcakes!) but next I need to really focus on my weight and diet, then learning Spanish and then Summer School in July.

Today, I don’t have much to talk about. Life has been completely ordinary, in the best way. Don't you love when that happens! :)
Tomorrow making Brown butter cupcakes with apricot frosting...

This is what I wish I was doing today:

I hate summer hotness!

Banana Bread

I have been wanting to make banana bread forever but was always intimidated, but now that I am a fabulous baker I can make anything, right!? Well the over ripe bananas were calling my name and the fact the I had a well stocked pantry now, made it a no brainier that I had to attempt my first loaf.
I must now confess that homemade bread is fast becoming my favorite thing to make, poor cupcakes! I just find it amazing that you can take basic ingredients and make them into a beautiful loaf of bread! Plus bread is challenging and a little scary and time consuming; I kinda like that. And the smell that will fill every crevice of your house (I wish I had smell-o-vision for y'all)... :)

I have done a lot of baking lately, as you all know, all of it being experimental, trying new flavors, different techniques and even did some vegetarian (dairy free) cupcakes. All this has made me much better and not to sound cocky but I do think I've gotten pretty fabulous! ;) So some were amazing (my top two are Lemon Blueberry and Creme de Menthe)...

...and some were failures, even though I still got good reviews on them, I think I could have done better so they are on my re-do list...champagne and red velvet cupcakes.
I love learning and sharing...hope you enjoy it as well!? :)

mini vaca

A and I went on a little vaca to Carlsbad this weekend...not a whole lotta happenings in Carlsbad, NM but it was nice to get away from everything for a few days and I've always loved the caverns and bat flight. However, coming back to my lovely home is the best feeling!
Tomorrow making Creme de Menthe cupcakes!! Yum in my tum!

my futures so bright i gotta wear shades!

Who knows what'll happen from week to week, let alone the future and it seems like life always surprises me just when I am getting comfortable but I am very excited about the potential. For once, I know what I want to do "when I grow up" and have been working hard at making it happen (being a teacher and baking). Things are even falling into place to make my bakery business happen; might even have a partner to open an actual store!
And personally, I am finally starting to figure myself out, who I am, what makes me happy, how to be a better me (with or without people). I continue to grow and learn every day! :)