March did not pan out as well as I'd hoped for me being productive..I literally haven't done much for the last few weeks but I think it's exactly what I needed to re-group. So now I'm ready to start April being productive and non-procrastinating (or I can try at least!)....I need to continue with my detox and need to finish this yuck semester and hopefully pass.

so me!

I was just thinking how sad technology is...I don't write in a diary, I blog; I don't take pictures and put them in a photo album, I post them on FB. I love randomly looking back at old diary entries and old pictures...so now I had to order all the pics from FB and it was expensive! ;)

So it's a crazy thought that I may have found the one and the whole time he was right there.
And before anyone yells at me for moving too fast or thinking too big already, it's just a random thought! :P I know that I have a tendency to leap into things and follow my heart, not my head but I'm okay with that. Part of my charm is that I'm so passionate about things, that I do give all my heart to people, even when they don't deserve it. This is a completely different relationship then I've ever had before, I'm thinking before I act, I actually talk to him instead of running away, I 100% believe that he knows me and doesn't care how crazy I am, and for the big things, like sex and love and marriage, I am being very cautious and slow with. I would like to do this one right, wait to have sex till I'm engaged, wait to say I love you until we know 100% this is the one....
Honestly, I'm not over-thinking and analyzing it, just enjoying how great this feels and happy I am. Really I'm just enjoying that out of a sea of shitty, unreliable people I have found a genuine friend.

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"Faith is the continual demonstration of the strength and wonder of life."

plans.....

I was once told, if you want to make God laugh, make plans. I think it's very true but I am a planner, controller by nature so I'm going to attempt to make plans for the next two years. Here goes....I will graduate in May 2012 and then am planning on moving, as much as I have enjoyed being back in LC I know with certainty I want more. So I am in favor of two places, Seattle/Portland area or back to Colorado. If I go to Colorado, I have been admitted to a Pastry School and will do a program that is part time for 15 weeks and then get my second degree. This way I can teach for awhile and then eventually do my biggest goal, which is to open a bakery.

Well I'm doing what I do best and freaking out, the difference is I'm actually talking to him and friends before acting. I tell him to remind me to breathe and he does and then I calm down.
I'm scared that I don't know how to let myself be happy...

Oh and we completely remind me of Charlotte and Harry from Sex and the City...he was so not her type and she almost wrote him off but it turned out he was perfect for her and the love of her life.