So it's a crazy thought that I may have found the one and the whole time he was right there.
And before anyone yells at me for moving too fast or thinking too big already, it's just a random thought! :P I know that I have a tendency to leap into things and follow my heart, not my head but I'm okay with that. Part of my charm is that I'm so passionate about things, that I do give all my heart to people, even when they don't deserve it. This is a completely different relationship then I've ever had before, I'm thinking before I act, I actually talk to him instead of running away, I 100% believe that he knows me and doesn't care how crazy I am, and for the big things, like sex and love and marriage, I am being very cautious and slow with. I would like to do this one right, wait to have sex till I'm engaged, wait to say I love you until we know 100% this is the one....
Honestly, I'm not over-thinking and analyzing it, just enjoying how great this feels and happy I am. Really I'm just enjoying that out of a sea of shitty, unreliable people I have found a genuine friend.