lazy.

I'm having a really bad day and being way too hard on myself but I'm so tired of making bad decisions, and most of them are fueled by the fact that I'm so lazy. I don't know why or what's wrong with me but I hate hate that aspect of me, especially lately I've become a lazy ass...I don't exercise at all, I never want to leave the house....and it's making me depressed with how I look and am being yet I do nothing to change it except for complain.

"Success Don't Come By Being Lazy!"

school....

It has been a very rough summer with school and now I feel like I've blinked and summer is gone...Fall starts in less then two weeks (which means that for a year straight I have been in school constantly, minus a month!). I'm excited for Fall though, every semester is a new start and with my major I get the chance to take a wide assortment of classes....this semester is a lot of education classes but also a interior design class (unfortunately on Friday night...Boo!)and I am finally taking French, which i have been dying to learn forever! I also will have the luxury of not having to kill myself trying to work full time and go to school full time, which means more time to actually focus on being a good student and time to enjoy life, my main interests will be my tv addiction (lol) and bible study and baking (once a week) and drinking with friends and boyfriend....
I know I complain about school, especially Chemistry hell, but I am madly in love with learning, am like a sponge and I flourish in school settings. Plus it's really nice feeling like I have a purpose in life rather then just a log bumping into random life experiences.

baking blues....

So I have gotten rather lazy about a lot of the things I loved you so much, namely baking. When J and I were together I started cooking and baking all the day, and realized my ultimate goal of wanting to be a baker and eventually open a bakery....however since moving back to Cruces, I don't think I've baked once and I don't know why! I miss it so much and it was always my blues cure all.
I have a million recipes and can't wait to start!!! And I'm going to make a goal to bake something ONCE a week (and hopefully not eat it all, which doesn't help with my fat issue) and blog about it (recipe and picture)....get ready for yum!

time flies when you're having fun...

It's been two years that I've been back in LC, that Chloe died...it's crazy to think of how time flies, of how much life changes....moments that I didn't think I could survive, people that I didn't think I could live without and now almost everything is different again....and I'm ok! :)

gotta love Bluntcard for saying exactly how I feel sometimes...

Vanessa rut...

I think it's just school and being unhappy with my weight and image but I've been in a rut lately, that comes and goes. I'm very much people oriented but go through phases where I just don't want to do anything or see anyone, but then I feel bad because I cancel on everyone, like this weekend. Lately the appeal of just staying home (loving my new house by the way) with Zoey, watching Netflix and eating is so overwhelming....I am feeling better today though, got up and did Bible Study (doing Skip's 729 sermons of the complete break down of the bible...which I started like a year ago and have not being doing at all for the last months) and talked to some old bests. Tomorrow I am determined to get on my exercise regimen!
Two more weeks of Chemistry hell, I so hope I pass!!

wine date!

I finally left my home and made the first step in getting out of my summer funk, went on a wine date with a friend and had the best time! Nothing better then drinking wine on a patio, listening to great music and catching up with a friend. :)