Day one!!

Tomorrow is day one of Slim in Six...I need to stick to it, soooo tired of feeling fat and gross (I swear it looks like I'm having twins!).
Go Vanessa Go!!!

Had a great, drinking filled weekend in Abq with Desiree. All I need to re-group is a bestie. It was her birthday so we had a Mad Hatter themed party.

On a different subject..there's a quote that says never give up on love, but is that true or do you eventually have to walk away because it's the best thing for you and your future, because sometimes people don't deserve chances....

New shoes!

I decided to try something different and have been in a yellow mood, so here's my new shoes!


"Hey, I put some new shoes on and suddenly everything's right!" ~Paolo Nutini

I am loving life right now...not working for the summer since summer school is crazy, it is awesome!! I of course can only pull it off for a few months, one because I live above my means and two because I'd get bored. But for now, I get to stay up late and play and then sleep in late, screw around all day in my lovely ac house with no worries..yay!

So I have been reflecting on myself and why I am such a relationship disaster, why I feel the need to push and run...and yeah no answers. What's worse is that I know what I do and yet I keep doing it..and I thought I was finally starting to learn from my past failed relationships and the fact that I do the same thing in all of them, but no, still doing it with A. I don't know if it's that I can't settle down because I think the grass is greener somewhere else or if I am so afraid of love and being left (daddy issues) that I make it happen or if I'm just a loony..IDK! Luckily I have great friends that help, I have a fab boy that's willing to put up with me and wait for me to figure it out, and that I'm not that stubborn that I'm not willing to get help.

So excited, Brandy and I are doing a cake decorating class on Tuesdays, starts next week! This is my passion and I get to do it with a great friend. :)

Summer school is kinda scary but I love it..it's like wham bam thank you mam. lol
I am questioning if I'm the settling down type..I have everything I've every wanted in a relationship yet I still feel the need to flee, to find things wrong with it so I can create drama. Seriously what is wrong with me?
This weekend has been fun, spending time with bf and a best, Christina...had date/game night Friday and then yesterday went to Silver City for the Blues Fest, and tomorrow going to the wine fest. :)