I think I may finally be getting out of my rut.... applied for a better teaching job and crossing my fingers, registered for Fall and its a fresh new semester to get back in track, and am enjoying being domesticated and boring. I just need to breathe and enjoy the good, full life!
Oh and I'm writing this book report..and here is the irony, it's on time management. I'm the worst at that, at not procrastinating, at not getting distracted. Rather then actually reading the book and letting it soak in so I could learn something...I am bsing it along because I waited till the last second to do it...and why is that, because I watched every episode of Prison Break for a week. lol

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"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two."

Alice in Wonderland

Last night was my theme party and I had a lot of fun, loved my costume and now am ready to have a million theme parties. :)
However people suck....so many people bailed at the last minute.
I am definitely getting to the point in my life, finally, where I'm just happy being at home with my family..over going out, drinking a lot. Parties at your house are great cuz I get the best of both worlds..and its always fab when you can be somewhere without shoes!

action plan.

So I have set up a plan to get myself from being such a pile..hopefully it is just mental and nothing is actually wrong with me, I have a fear of diabetes.
1. Exercise.
2. Get better school job.
3. Re-focus on school since I have completely become side-tracked this semester.
4. Eat healthier-then make the transition to Vegetarian.
5. Enjoy the people in my life that matter and stop stressing about the ones that don't.
6. Breathe and just be happy in the moment.
7. Re-join my bible study, like school it has fallen through the waist side this semester.
8. Curb some addictions...like sweets and tv.
9. Re-group....I have a very full and blessed life but I need to figure out how to balance it all, without letting things fall aside.
{School, work, family, friends, and me time}

The blahs.

I haven't been feeling myself lately..so tired, unmotivated, grouchy, constant headache, completely uninterested in going out....I don't know what's wrong and it's starting to bug me!! I'm not stressed, not unhappy..actually very content with how things have turned out, my life feels very calm and perfect. Is that the problem? I don't know how to be stable and undramatic....

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This is what I have...

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her..."

easter eggs...

I love being a child still, doing dumb holiday things, like coloring eggs! :) A's niece and I colored like fifty eggs tonight and was so much fun...now I can't wait to have my own little family.