Severely Single.

So first let me start with how much of a fan I am of blogging, not only of my own but of others. I love that I can personalize a page and it's all about me, from random thoughts to quotes to personal stuff....How did I wait so long to do one?
Secondly, I was reading this great blog, www.severelysingle.com, and I love it! We are so similar: talkers, animated, adorable, single but not because we are unwanted or have not had many opportunities but because we chose not to settle. Yes one day I would like to meet the right guy but I think there is more out there, like finding yourself, like great friends and great adventures, and honestly I'm just good at being single! I like change and adventure and even some drama, and I like options.

L.O.V.E.

Love: It's a word we all know and use, something we all want and search for, something that makes life worthwhile but for me it has always been a very hard word. I love easily and deeply, despite what the aftermaths of loving does to you, the hurt that is unimaginable. I have always had guys declare their love, almost instantly, but do they really know what love is!? Love is not a convenience, something that just goes away because it is no longer convenient...Real love is not conditioned on the “mood”.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
Love endures ALL things!

Oh, my heart....

I met my ex, G, for tea today..we are so good together, you can feel the connection and no one has ever understood me like he does..I don't understand how two people can be so connected in every possible way yet have exploded like we did. He told me about this girl that he's been seeing, how she has pointed out the same things that I did about him, and he apologized to me for being a jerk. I so want him to be happy but seriously I could feel my heart break a little.

I quit!

I didn't start out the day thinking it would turn out this way but everything has been leading me to it and today was the final push, I quit my job finally. I loved my kids and the hours but the pay is horrible, I am so under-appreciated, and I stupidly had an office romance and now am paying the price...so back to restaurants I go. It is a way better fit for me while I am finishing school, I need to be social and busy and make more money in order to keep my sanity.
I still am struggling with the feeling that I took ten steps back in life (being back in my hometown, being a student, and now serving) but I know school is worth it.

What would you do if you were told that you had 10 years to live?

*here's my list, not in any particular order...

1. Graduate school.
2. Learn French and then live in Paris for a year.
3. Travel.
4. Get married.
5. Sky-dive, bungee jump, etc...
6. Learn how to play the piano.
7. Finish reading The 100 Greatest Novels of All Time.
8. Open a bakery/wine bar.
9. Smile every day and not sweat the small stuff.
10. Pray every night.
11. Drink, eat, be merry, and take tons of pictures.
12. Say I love you daily.
13. Soak up every possible ounce of knowledge I can.
14. Be on Amazing Race.
15. See a opera.
16. Learn how to dance.
17. Go to a Patriots game.

Today was a bad day...starting with me being an unmotivated, lazy blob (school and exercise), ending with my ex being an immature ass who ruined my work day. I came home and cried...but I have great friends and know that I'm better then him, so I am over it and am now watching the Bachelor and getting my Facebook fix. ♥

Here is a great poem I stumbled upon about a door...
"Consider how many times life changes by opening a door, who you meet there, what you find there, what you leave behind. Falling in love with a door is easy; it records the living, hears every whisper, every tear, it lets you lean there - against it, slam it, bang it, walk through it...
Yes. I do believe the most sensible way to get through a wall is by using a door.
Either side lets you in or leaves you out - holds in warmth, keeps out cold, holds generally. And of course it makes you question.
Question where you are going, what you are doing, why you are doing it, what made you do it. Question choices, courage and letting go. Letting it be. Letting it open.
I've left my breath near a door many times - and found it too."

March...

March is the month...to really stick to my exercise program and diet, to focus on my priorities, and to continue the betterment of my life. :)
I am determined!
..and excited, lots of fun events planned...Abq trip, Texas trip, St. Patty's day....
Oh and hopefully I can go the whole month without one boy trying, blatantly to sleep with me, because seriously this last month has been crazy! I know I'm great and irresistible but I am way more then sex...and I can't believe how much guys don't try to date or get to know you anymore, how they really think that its okay to just ask for sex (but apparently there are quite a lot of girls out there that think that it is okay...), or worse whip it out!! UGH!!!!