I'm so ready for a new year filled with change and promise!! Already started making some changes personally, making amends with people and figuring out what I want the future to hold! Go ME!! :)

Snow days make me happy!!

I've decided to let go of grudges, hurt feelings, stubbornness and forgive and move on with some friendships. People are people and will never live up to my "expectations" so I can either accept it and keep some really good friends (flaws and all) or be alone. I decided today to choose the first because honestly this year has sucked without some of my friends. I went to the extreme this year of not letting people affect me, not take me for granted, not being on call for them; it was nice to take that stand and I think mellowed my high maintenance side a little and taught me a lot but it was also very lonely and disheartening. So 2012 will be the year I hopefully find the balance and as usual continue the growth of me! :)

“Any fool can criticize, condemn, and complain but it takes character and self control to be understanding and forgiving.” ~Dale Carnegie

2011

Well once again, another year is wrapping up...I have to say this one has not been the best (not the worse either). A lot of changes as usual with people, another year trying to finish up school even though I am massively burnt out, some rocky moments, some Vanessa blues, and an unexpected gift of starting my baking business. All I can do is take time to learn from the good and the bad of the year and hope that next year is better! I love NYE, it's a chance to start all over! :) Maybe this year I'll actually do my New Year's resolutions!!

wedding bells..

After a lot of changes and some turmoil, I have finally decided to enjoy the wedding process again! First on the list is postponing the wedding until October, that way I'm done with school and less stressed. Let the craziness begin... ;)

Checklist:
Wedding Date: October 6, 2012
{New} Save the dates
Wedding Party
Dress
Location
Flowers
Cake (done by me)
Guest List
Invitations
Catering

...did I forget anything??

I'm in desperate need of some change in my life....preferably in a move! Stupid school is taking forever to end!!

2011...

I had some weird dreams last night that lingered when I woke up. It made me think about this year, how bitter-sweet it has been. I have had some major changes in the friendship area, this is something I know happens throughout life, people change, people grow apart, people drift apart simply because of lack of trying, etc but I will never get use to it. It hurts because I thought I had finally come to a solid, true friend core of people and have been shocked by how things have turned out with some of them. It really is like losing a family member for me. And honestly I am an extremely social person, I thrive off of people (good or bad) so this year has been that much harder. I have become a huge homebody and don't seem to have much of a social life anymore, some of that is personal choice and some because of the changes in friendships. I also am struggling with a major Vanessa funk I've been in, I'm not really sure why.
On to the sweet, I am almost done with school and am so proud of myself for finishing this degree. I also had the amazing surprise of having my baking business start and take off...there are no words to express how surreal it is to be baking for a career and even better to have rave reviews! I also am so blessed to have, through thick and thin, a boyfriend that is perfect for me. I would have never thought I would end up with him but am so glad.