action plan.

So I have set up a plan to get myself from being such a pile..hopefully it is just mental and nothing is actually wrong with me, I have a fear of diabetes.
1. Exercise.
2. Get better school job.
3. Re-focus on school since I have completely become side-tracked this semester.
4. Eat healthier-then make the transition to Vegetarian.
5. Enjoy the people in my life that matter and stop stressing about the ones that don't.
6. Breathe and just be happy in the moment.
7. Re-join my bible study, like school it has fallen through the waist side this semester.
8. Curb some addictions...like sweets and tv.
9. Re-group....I have a very full and blessed life but I need to figure out how to balance it all, without letting things fall aside.
{School, work, family, friends, and me time}

The blahs.

I haven't been feeling myself lately..so tired, unmotivated, grouchy, constant headache, completely uninterested in going out....I don't know what's wrong and it's starting to bug me!! I'm not stressed, not unhappy..actually very content with how things have turned out, my life feels very calm and perfect. Is that the problem? I don't know how to be stable and undramatic....

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This is what I have...

"Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will lie under the stars and listen to your heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch you sleep... wait for the boy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, who thinks you' re just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have YOU... The one who turns to his friends and says, that's her..."

easter eggs...

I love being a child still, doing dumb holiday things, like coloring eggs! :) A's niece and I colored like fifty eggs tonight and was so much fun...now I can't wait to have my own little family.

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What should have been a good day, with great plans and some priceless words, turned into the worst night...sitting at a hot bar, not drinking, alone, miserable and counting down the seconds till we could leave. But I realized that I am getting older and I am done with going out and drinking all the time, tired of the scene, tired of seeing my ex every time I go out and just tired. I think Vanessa has finally grown up and is settling down, ready to stay put somewhere, ready to have a family..and of course I'll always be me, a social drinker who loves to have fun but in moderation now.

March did not pan out as well as I'd hoped for me being productive..I literally haven't done much for the last few weeks but I think it's exactly what I needed to re-group. So now I'm ready to start April being productive and non-procrastinating (or I can try at least!)....I need to continue with my detox and need to finish this yuck semester and hopefully pass.