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It's way to early to say and I'm the biggest skeptic of love and people and forever, but this relationship, this guy feels real, different. I can't stop thinking about him, miss him after a minute, get very grouchy when I can't have him, completely trust him, and for the first time in my life feel 1000% positive that no matter what I do, how much of pain I am, how much of my Vanessa bs I do, he won't leave me. I feel like he knows me completely. He told me today, "You are not a pain, just want a lot."
It's crazy...
Is this what it feels like when you find the one??

“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”
- Dr Suess

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I am in fact a little smitten....it's a great, scary feeling!

I am having a Alice in Wonderland theme party in April and so excited, I LOVE dressing up but am having costume issues...however I think this will be the one.
http://www.starcostumes.com/items/Queen-of-Hearts-Costume-Adult.aspx?utm_source=googlebase&utm_medium=comparisonshopping&source=k232270
And on a side note, it never ceases to amaze me how easily things change in our lives, how much they constantly change...but all I can do is enjoy the roller coaster ride. Right now I'm on a high point. ;) It is crazy how some people can be in your lives forever, yet you never really pay them attention until one day, through dumb FB, you start talking and they become a huge part of your life....love it!!

currently reading...

I am now starting Wicked by Gregory Maguire. I can't wait...loving the whole play on The Wizard of Oz (oh and the book is green, which I just think is cool!).

boy update...

So I have finally decided to take my lovely friends advice and never go back or entertain thoughts of ex's....I had a momentary lapse this week with G, especially after the things he said Sunday...but there is a reason why ex's are ex's!
I am starting to talk to a new boy, who is not my type-but honestly do I even know what my type is anymore!-but very sweet, sincere, funny and clearly adores me. I am not putting much into it at this point but just seeing what happens....but he is surprising me and it's lovely! :)

“When one door closes, another opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door that we do not see the one which has opened for us.”

Zoey ♥

St. Patty's day....

Okay seriously did that just happen, St. Patty's day ran into a whole lot of HS people, saw the guy I randomly kissed at NYE, saw D, my ex that I'm still not over, my ex, G called and told me he misses me and had random boys hit on me....now I'm drunk and soooooo confused!!!