people make me sad.

I have said before and I'll say it again, people suck!! I have been sad all week because of them and then hating myself for caring. I'm tired of seeing the best in people, of giving them my all just to be let down and hurt...and seriously do you ever really know someone?!


There is a perfect quote that keeps me strong...
"God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED. To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be."

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"No matter how many plans we make or steps we follow, we never know how our day is going to end up. We'd prefer to now what curve balls will be thrown our way but its the accidents that always turn out to be the most interesting part of our day, of life. The people we never expected to show up, the turn of events we would have never chosen for ourselves, all of a sudden you find yourself somewhere you never expected to be and its nice or it takes some getting used too..still you know you'll find yourself appreciating it somewhere down the line so you go to sleep each night thinking about tomorrow, going over your plans, preparing the lists and hoping that whatever accidents come your way they are happy ones."

Weekend recap.

So just got back from a weekend in Abq: drunk scene it, Desiree being arrested and me in the back of a cop car, ending three friendships, car work, bridesmaid dress outing, Trader Joes and wine heaven, GNO and a lot of drunken fun (and pictures), eating way too much, baby shower, and lots of convos with my ex, G....

Severely Single.

So first let me start with how much of a fan I am of blogging, not only of my own but of others. I love that I can personalize a page and it's all about me, from random thoughts to quotes to personal stuff....How did I wait so long to do one?
Secondly, I was reading this great blog, www.severelysingle.com, and I love it! We are so similar: talkers, animated, adorable, single but not because we are unwanted or have not had many opportunities but because we chose not to settle. Yes one day I would like to meet the right guy but I think there is more out there, like finding yourself, like great friends and great adventures, and honestly I'm just good at being single! I like change and adventure and even some drama, and I like options.

L.O.V.E.

Love: It's a word we all know and use, something we all want and search for, something that makes life worthwhile but for me it has always been a very hard word. I love easily and deeply, despite what the aftermaths of loving does to you, the hurt that is unimaginable. I have always had guys declare their love, almost instantly, but do they really know what love is!? Love is not a convenience, something that just goes away because it is no longer convenient...Real love is not conditioned on the “mood”.
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres."
Love endures ALL things!

Oh, my heart....

I met my ex, G, for tea today..we are so good together, you can feel the connection and no one has ever understood me like he does..I don't understand how two people can be so connected in every possible way yet have exploded like we did. He told me about this girl that he's been seeing, how she has pointed out the same things that I did about him, and he apologized to me for being a jerk. I so want him to be happy but seriously I could feel my heart break a little.

I quit!

I didn't start out the day thinking it would turn out this way but everything has been leading me to it and today was the final push, I quit my job finally. I loved my kids and the hours but the pay is horrible, I am so under-appreciated, and I stupidly had an office romance and now am paying the price...so back to restaurants I go. It is a way better fit for me while I am finishing school, I need to be social and busy and make more money in order to keep my sanity.
I still am struggling with the feeling that I took ten steps back in life (being back in my hometown, being a student, and now serving) but I know school is worth it.