Mind, Body and Soul ♥

Well, I'm still in a weird rut but I have to say I'm pretty proud of myself and how far I've come...Finally graduated from college and now have two degrees, have a successful little bakery, and am actually in a healthy, adult relationship (lol). Go me! :)
Now this Summer my goal is to fill my days with three main things, Bible Study (completing my studies of each verse of the bible), continuing my pursuit of learning (making a dent in my huge to do list of novels to read, including the 100 greatest novels of all time and taking Spanish classes), and getting back in shape.
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missed me!?

Well, it's been awhile since I've posted but seriously I'm majorly boring lately and I'm not sure anyone even reads this blog so.... ;)I should be over the moon with life lately, especially compared to a few years ago, where I was struggling with money, stressed all the time, dealing with dating, etc but I really have been in a rut. I'm very happy with my relationship, of course there are bumps and bruises, but he really is the perfect guy for me...let's face it I'm not the easiest person to deal with! I'm beyond happy with the unexpected turn in my life where my baking actually became a business. I love my home and my little family, and even am somewhat content with being back in Cruces. Yet, I can't shake the rut or this impending big 3-5 birthday coming up fast. I'm like middle aged almost and I thought I would have life all figured out by now and to be honest I'm more clueless then ever!! I'm baffled by people, heartbroken by friends and feeling so bitter and alone...I don't have a clue what I want to be when I grow up and just keep wasting time and money on school and need buckets of money to actually do what I want-open a bakery...I am extremely unhealthy or atleast I feel like I am...BLAH!!

This about sums up this year! ;)

I'm so ready for a new year filled with change and promise!! Already started making some changes personally, making amends with people and figuring out what I want the future to hold! Go ME!! :)

Snow days make me happy!!

I've decided to let go of grudges, hurt feelings, stubbornness and forgive and move on with some friendships. People are people and will never live up to my "expectations" so I can either accept it and keep some really good friends (flaws and all) or be alone. I decided today to choose the first because honestly this year has sucked without some of my friends. I went to the extreme this year of not letting people affect me, not take me for granted, not being on call for them; it was nice to take that stand and I think mellowed my high maintenance side a little and taught me a lot but it was also very lonely and disheartening. So 2012 will be the year I hopefully find the balance and as usual continue the growth of me! :)

“Any fool can criticize, condemn, and complain but it takes character and self control to be understanding and forgiving.” ~Dale Carnegie

2011

Well once again, another year is wrapping up...I have to say this one has not been the best (not the worse either). A lot of changes as usual with people, another year trying to finish up school even though I am massively burnt out, some rocky moments, some Vanessa blues, and an unexpected gift of starting my baking business. All I can do is take time to learn from the good and the bad of the year and hope that next year is better! I love NYE, it's a chance to start all over! :) Maybe this year I'll actually do my New Year's resolutions!!